Sometimes when I don't talk it doesn't mean I'm okay.
Sometimes when I don't talk it doesn't mean I agree with you.
Sometimes when I don't talk it doesn't mean I don't know what crime you're committing.
Sometimes when I don't talk it doesn't mean I don't know you're stealing everything from me.
Sometimes when I don't talk it doesn't mean I don't know you're stabbing me from behind.
Sometimes when I don't talk it doesn't mean I'm dumb and don't know what you're doing.
Sometimes when I don't talk it doesn't mean I'm going to forgive you.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
I Was versus I Am
It's already 11:35 PM and I'm still awake. It's not that I have insomnia or anything, it's just that I don't want to go to sleep now. Why? I feel like it's a waste? Haha, not exactly, but I just want to be productive, I just want to do something useful at least once per day. And no, I'm not going to study for my Chinese anyway because my class is on Monday. There are still 4 days more. Hehe
Well, after sitting hours in front of my laptop thinking of what to write, I came up with this idea. Reflection! It's about me in the past and me in the present. Precisely, me before college and me after college. Should we start off with something nice first?
- I was thoughtless/naive ------------------ I am thoughtful (too thoughtful sometimes I think. I tend to over think most of the time now. This is so not good.)
- I was a study-hard student -------- I am a study-smart student now (too smart sometimes until I almost die after each final or test because I only cram/study the night before the actual exam/test date.)
- I was fairer/whiter ---------------- I am pretty dark these days. However, I'm still the fairest/whitest among my best friends. Haha
- I didn't know how to shop or buy anything --------------- I am a professional shopper now. And this will lead to the next point. I don't think this is something I should be proud of anyway.
- I was a very good saver ---------- I am so good at spending nowadays. See, I told you this is a disaster!
- I was more considerate towards people's feeling --------- I am less considerate towards it now. I don't really like to go around the bush anymore. I tend to say what I feel even though I know I'd regret it afterward, but I'd rather say it out and explain it or say my apology later. I have too much going on inside me already so if it's not that necessary to hold it back, I'll say it out straightaway. Please understand that if someday I do that to you! If you can't stand me, you're welcome to do the same. And if I can't stand your response, I can just walk away to avoid 'an eye for an eye will make the whole world blind'. As simple as that! Hehe
- I Me Myself Mine My was my priority ------------------ My parents are my priority.
- My standard about something/someone was pretty low ------------ My standard about that something/someone is very high now until I think I will be single for the rest of life. Haha
- In term of study, I was more confident ------------------ In term of study, I am less confident now because I tend to practice my study-smart method too much.
- In term of social life, I was less confident ---------------- In term of social life, I am more confident, but I still rate it low compared to other people.
- I loved my major -------------------- I hate my major. After spending 3 years something with it, I can say that I hate it now.
- I didn't like to wear high heels ------- I love to wear high heels because younger generation seems to outgrow me. Urgh, I hate that.
- I was better in Khmer than in English ------------------- I am so horrible in my own mother-tongue language now. Well, my English is starting to sink as well. Oh God! I really need to talk/speak more.
- I did exercise almost everyday ------------------------- I don't even remember when was the last time I exercised. Last year? Oh my goodness!
- I never felt guilty spending other people's money ------- I feel super guilty whenever I use other people's money. I appreciate my own effort more.
- I used my cellphone more ----------- When was the last time I made a call? When was the last time I received/sent a message? I can use $20 phone credit for more than 3 months already. Gosh! I'm so isolated these days!
- I had a very good memory ---------- My memory is downgrading. I sometimes even think that I have a short-term memory loss.
- I read more ------------------------- I internet more (yeah, I just verbed it.) I really want to change this back. Whenever I want to buy books these days, I always think that I can read or search for it on the internet and I usually end up with nothing. Google has become my third God. Oh man, I really need a way to change this back. Please help!
- I had enough sleep ------------------ I never have enough sleep no matter how long I sleep.
If I go to sleep now maybe I can change the last point sometimes soon. Think so? NO? I'm expecting for that answer, too.
Now that I finish writing about it, I have a feeling that I've written something similar to this post in the past. See, my memory is in critical condition now! I should really stop to over think about things.
Okay, I think I shall hit my sack now. Good night!
Well, after sitting hours in front of my laptop thinking of what to write, I came up with this idea. Reflection! It's about me in the past and me in the present. Precisely, me before college and me after college. Should we start off with something nice first?
- I was thoughtless/naive ------------------ I am thoughtful (too thoughtful sometimes I think. I tend to over think most of the time now. This is so not good.)
- I was a study-hard student -------- I am a study-smart student now (too smart sometimes until I almost die after each final or test because I only cram/study the night before the actual exam/test date.)
- I was fairer/whiter ---------------- I am pretty dark these days. However, I'm still the fairest/whitest among my best friends. Haha
- I didn't know how to shop or buy anything --------------- I am a professional shopper now. And this will lead to the next point. I don't think this is something I should be proud of anyway.
- I was a very good saver ---------- I am so good at spending nowadays. See, I told you this is a disaster!
- I was more considerate towards people's feeling --------- I am less considerate towards it now. I don't really like to go around the bush anymore. I tend to say what I feel even though I know I'd regret it afterward, but I'd rather say it out and explain it or say my apology later. I have too much going on inside me already so if it's not that necessary to hold it back, I'll say it out straightaway. Please understand that if someday I do that to you! If you can't stand me, you're welcome to do the same. And if I can't stand your response, I can just walk away to avoid 'an eye for an eye will make the whole world blind'. As simple as that! Hehe
- I Me Myself Mine My was my priority ------------------ My parents are my priority.
- My standard about something/someone was pretty low ------------ My standard about that something/someone is very high now until I think I will be single for the rest of life. Haha
- In term of study, I was more confident ------------------ In term of study, I am less confident now because I tend to practice my study-smart method too much.
- In term of social life, I was less confident ---------------- In term of social life, I am more confident, but I still rate it low compared to other people.
- I loved my major -------------------- I hate my major. After spending 3 years something with it, I can say that I hate it now.
- I didn't like to wear high heels ------- I love to wear high heels because younger generation seems to outgrow me. Urgh, I hate that.
- I was better in Khmer than in English ------------------- I am so horrible in my own mother-tongue language now. Well, my English is starting to sink as well. Oh God! I really need to talk/speak more.
- I did exercise almost everyday ------------------------- I don't even remember when was the last time I exercised. Last year? Oh my goodness!
- I never felt guilty spending other people's money ------- I feel super guilty whenever I use other people's money. I appreciate my own effort more.
- I used my cellphone more ----------- When was the last time I made a call? When was the last time I received/sent a message? I can use $20 phone credit for more than 3 months already. Gosh! I'm so isolated these days!
- I had a very good memory ---------- My memory is downgrading. I sometimes even think that I have a short-term memory loss.
- I read more ------------------------- I internet more (yeah, I just verbed it.) I really want to change this back. Whenever I want to buy books these days, I always think that I can read or search for it on the internet and I usually end up with nothing. Google has become my third God. Oh man, I really need a way to change this back. Please help!
- I had enough sleep ------------------ I never have enough sleep no matter how long I sleep.
If I go to sleep now maybe I can change the last point sometimes soon. Think so? NO? I'm expecting for that answer, too.
Now that I finish writing about it, I have a feeling that I've written something similar to this post in the past. See, my memory is in critical condition now! I should really stop to over think about things.
Okay, I think I shall hit my sack now. Good night!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
My Face Color
There are times when I'm embarrassed or shy and my face would turn red/pink. It's pretty normal when our faces change to red/pink color when we feel shy or embarrassed for whatever reason, but sometimes it's just a leftover or simply from the heat and people judge it otherwise. That situation is really awkward. Sometimes people won't even believe your explanation and I'm so tired of it.
My face can easily turn to red/pink color when I'm in the heat. My face turns to red/pink color when I feel embarrassed or shy or etc. about something. Sometimes I myself don't even know the reason. Well, the point is people like to interpret it in the wrong way. There was a time when I went to the hair salon to have my hair shampoo and the staff there kept questioning me about my face like I was their prisoner or something. I was watching a sad movie (a movie about a loyal dog and its master) and almost moved to tears before heading to that salon. So my face turned red/pink since I was home and the color was still there on my face when I reached the salon. When I reached there, I simply became their target. What the heaven! I patiently explained to them the reason behind it. One after another and there's plenty of them. The moment the new one entered, they started questioning about my face color. Grrrr! They thought I used make-up and that was (and is and will be) one of the responses I hate the most. I, 23 years old, haven't used make-up even for once yet and if I were to use it one day, I won't make my face become a clown either. It's really annoying when people think that. And this morning, there's another misunderstanding happened. I paid a visit to the dentist. While he's performing his job, I wanted to cough, but I tried to hold it back. I held it back until my tears rolled down and my face became red/pink. When he and his assistant saw that, they were completely in terror. They thought I was hurt and trying to find the mishap. It's pretty funny, though. I wanted to tell them the reason, but I was too lazy and moody to do so. Should I explain to them next week when I go there again? Too late already, right? Yeah, I think so. I'll definitely tell them if it were to happen again anyway.
Some people say that it's cute to have such face, but I think it's a burden or more like a sin. You can't hide your true feeling and you may receive a mountain of misjudgment or misinterpretation from that.
p.s. For some reason, I think it's a disease. Think so?
My face can easily turn to red/pink color when I'm in the heat. My face turns to red/pink color when I feel embarrassed or shy or etc. about something. Sometimes I myself don't even know the reason. Well, the point is people like to interpret it in the wrong way. There was a time when I went to the hair salon to have my hair shampoo and the staff there kept questioning me about my face like I was their prisoner or something. I was watching a sad movie (a movie about a loyal dog and its master) and almost moved to tears before heading to that salon. So my face turned red/pink since I was home and the color was still there on my face when I reached the salon. When I reached there, I simply became their target. What the heaven! I patiently explained to them the reason behind it. One after another and there's plenty of them. The moment the new one entered, they started questioning about my face color. Grrrr! They thought I used make-up and that was (and is and will be) one of the responses I hate the most. I, 23 years old, haven't used make-up even for once yet and if I were to use it one day, I won't make my face become a clown either. It's really annoying when people think that. And this morning, there's another misunderstanding happened. I paid a visit to the dentist. While he's performing his job, I wanted to cough, but I tried to hold it back. I held it back until my tears rolled down and my face became red/pink. When he and his assistant saw that, they were completely in terror. They thought I was hurt and trying to find the mishap. It's pretty funny, though. I wanted to tell them the reason, but I was too lazy and moody to do so. Should I explain to them next week when I go there again? Too late already, right? Yeah, I think so. I'll definitely tell them if it were to happen again anyway.
Some people say that it's cute to have such face, but I think it's a burden or more like a sin. You can't hide your true feeling and you may receive a mountain of misjudgment or misinterpretation from that.
p.s. For some reason, I think it's a disease. Think so?
Thursday, January 20, 2011
After a Hot Shower
I am not the type to surrender the cold temperature or such. These last few weeks the temperature is pretty good. It's about 25 degrees celsius. Almost everyone here is wearing jackets and sweaters, though. I still wear my t-shirt and pants anyway. I am an anti-summer person so I survive better during winter. However, my mom asked me if I shower hot or cold water. I told her I never have hot shower, mom. I am very fine with this temperature. I'd fall sick if it's summer. I'm really fine, mom. Mom then told me to have hot shower because she's afraid I may fall sick. I followed her advice even though I hate hot shower. I was very okay before that hot shower. About 12 hours later after that hot shower, the cold symptoms arose within me. I started sneezing several times. I tried to sleep this afternoon thinking that I'd get better after waking up, but heaven no. Right now, I even start to have mucus. This is so not good. That hot shower! Grrrrrrrrrrr!
I'm pretty sure that tomorrow when I tell my mom I've caught a cold, my mom will start blaming on my t-shirt so and so, but not that hot shower. I rarely have cold during winter. I have it more during summer. That hot shower is really urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
p.s. I wish myself a speedy recovery, anyway!
I'm pretty sure that tomorrow when I tell my mom I've caught a cold, my mom will start blaming on my t-shirt so and so, but not that hot shower. I rarely have cold during winter. I have it more during summer. That hot shower is really urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
p.s. I wish myself a speedy recovery, anyway!
My Blog Was on a Day Off
I was trying to change my blog template the day before yesterday. I got some influence from the WordPress themes so I wanted this one to have one of my favorite WordPress themes. I wanted this one to have the Albeo theme, but it didn't have, so I decided to go with the Bueno one which I am having it for my WordPress blog thinking that I'd change my WordPress theme to Albeo instead. The modification process went fine until I tried to add the Twitter and Facebook like button to this blog. After I clicked 'save the template' and clicked 'view blog', I got a blank white page. I tried to refresh it, but nothing worked out. I then accessed it using Chrome instead of my default Firefox browser, still nothing showed up. I didn't give up so I opened Internet Explorer and tried access my blog with it, but man that blank page showed up again. I was pretty shocked. I thought I must have done something wrong to the modification. It was 5PM something when it happened and I was pretty tired by then after sitting hours choosing and editing my template so I decided to continue with it at night after my dinner and shower. I then shut down my laptop and went on having my dinner and shower, etc.
My nightmare started after I turned on my laptop and continued doing what I was doing. Right now I couldn't even access my dashboard. Not only that, I couldn't even access any of the blogspot.com websites. All I got was blank pages. I was in a complete terror. I knew I didn't love my blog that much, but after realizing that it could be gone forever, my heart stopped beating for awhile, literally speaking of course. I began going to forum after forum searching for answers to my problems. For one second, I came up with something. I used my mobile phone to try access to my blog and dashboard. I could access my dashboard from my mobile phone, but not my blog. I then knew that something is wrong with my laptop and/or my internet connection and/or ISP. After sometimes I knew that I wasn't the only one who's dreaming this nightmare, but it looked to me that I'm the only worst one who can't access both the dashboard and the blogs. I posted my problems to the Google forum for blogger and tried to read other people's solutions which were similar to mine. I tried all that I could. I slept around 3AM that night with nothing worked out. After waking up and all, I started my mission again. I did this. I did that. And all of the sudden around 4PM I was able to access my dashboard. Well, I didn't know which caused that because I did so many things as suggested from people on the forum. I was happy, but still I couldn't access my blog as well as other blogspot.com websites. The only way to access them for me was to use the free proxy. I found out so many useful websites while trying to wake up from this nightmare. I don't know if I should be thankful for that or not. Hahaha
I had high hope now after my dashboard was back. I tried to do this and that again. I rebooted my laptop several times as well and at one point, my internet connection was down. I thought it could be my mistake again. It was 11PM something already so I decided to go sleep after a long day with this horrible nightmare. I woke up and came straight to my laptop and tried to connect my internet. It's back. I was happy. After that I went on my day as usual. Around 2PM I continued with my nightmare mission again. Hurray, now I could access both my dashboard, my blogs and any other of the blogspot.com websites. I could say that I was on cloud nine. Without doing anything much this time, my blog's back. I think I really love my blog now. Hahaha
I now don't really dare edit anything. I'd use free proxy if I want to edit something so that when something's wrong again, my IP address can't be blocked or whatsoever. However, I just hope this problem won't arise again. As of now, I cannot access one of the websites which I always can. I can access it from my mobile phone, though. So I start to think that this nightmare is pretty contagious now.
p.s. Dear nightmare, please end soon. I am not in any conditions where I can afford multiple nightmares right now. Please understand!
My nightmare started after I turned on my laptop and continued doing what I was doing. Right now I couldn't even access my dashboard. Not only that, I couldn't even access any of the blogspot.com websites. All I got was blank pages. I was in a complete terror. I knew I didn't love my blog that much, but after realizing that it could be gone forever, my heart stopped beating for awhile, literally speaking of course. I began going to forum after forum searching for answers to my problems. For one second, I came up with something. I used my mobile phone to try access to my blog and dashboard. I could access my dashboard from my mobile phone, but not my blog. I then knew that something is wrong with my laptop and/or my internet connection and/or ISP. After sometimes I knew that I wasn't the only one who's dreaming this nightmare, but it looked to me that I'm the only worst one who can't access both the dashboard and the blogs. I posted my problems to the Google forum for blogger and tried to read other people's solutions which were similar to mine. I tried all that I could. I slept around 3AM that night with nothing worked out. After waking up and all, I started my mission again. I did this. I did that. And all of the sudden around 4PM I was able to access my dashboard. Well, I didn't know which caused that because I did so many things as suggested from people on the forum. I was happy, but still I couldn't access my blog as well as other blogspot.com websites. The only way to access them for me was to use the free proxy. I found out so many useful websites while trying to wake up from this nightmare. I don't know if I should be thankful for that or not. Hahaha
I had high hope now after my dashboard was back. I tried to do this and that again. I rebooted my laptop several times as well and at one point, my internet connection was down. I thought it could be my mistake again. It was 11PM something already so I decided to go sleep after a long day with this horrible nightmare. I woke up and came straight to my laptop and tried to connect my internet. It's back. I was happy. After that I went on my day as usual. Around 2PM I continued with my nightmare mission again. Hurray, now I could access both my dashboard, my blogs and any other of the blogspot.com websites. I could say that I was on cloud nine. Without doing anything much this time, my blog's back. I think I really love my blog now. Hahaha
I now don't really dare edit anything. I'd use free proxy if I want to edit something so that when something's wrong again, my IP address can't be blocked or whatsoever. However, I just hope this problem won't arise again. As of now, I cannot access one of the websites which I always can. I can access it from my mobile phone, though. So I start to think that this nightmare is pretty contagious now.
p.s. Dear nightmare, please end soon. I am not in any conditions where I can afford multiple nightmares right now. Please understand!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Dearest Readers...
Dearest Readers,
If you have time, please stop by my other blog. It is about a DIY tip where I myself have done and experienced it already. It's rare. It's new. It's creative (I hope).
Haha
Also, if you're on Facebook, please go support Khmer Food Application. I've created this application since 2008. It is an application where you can choose and send your favorite Khmer Food to your friends. Moreover, I have always constantly upload new Khmer Food photos to the application page as well. So if you like Khmer Food, you miss Khmer Food, you want your friends to know about Khmer Food, please go like and join the application.
See you there! Ciao!
If you have time, please stop by my other blog. It is about a DIY tip where I myself have done and experienced it already. It's rare. It's new. It's creative (I hope).
HahaAlso, if you're on Facebook, please go support Khmer Food Application. I've created this application since 2008. It is an application where you can choose and send your favorite Khmer Food to your friends. Moreover, I have always constantly upload new Khmer Food photos to the application page as well. So if you like Khmer Food, you miss Khmer Food, you want your friends to know about Khmer Food, please go like and join the application.
See you there! Ciao!
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Heartbreaking News
We Are Dating show has been canceled. Why? Because the viewing rate was low and the clashing schedule of other variety program, so the PD canceled it. I'm so sad. There's a total number of 4 episodes only. Ah, this world is really cruel. This is my heartbreaking news.
Have you been with the news recently? Do you know what is happening in Australia? This is another heartbreaking news. Seeing the people and dogs...got swept away with the flood is really heartbreaking. Additionally, a story about Jordan Rice is so touching. He's one real hero. He sacrificed his life in order to save his little brother. He and his mother were swept away with the flood. If you want to know more, follow a page on Facebook, which was created to dedicate to him. Here's the link.
This world is really cruel. Sigh! I think I start to lose interest in living already. What's the point of living anyway when everything is so unstable like this?
SIGH!
Have you been with the news recently? Do you know what is happening in Australia? This is another heartbreaking news. Seeing the people and dogs...got swept away with the flood is really heartbreaking. Additionally, a story about Jordan Rice is so touching. He's one real hero. He sacrificed his life in order to save his little brother. He and his mother were swept away with the flood. If you want to know more, follow a page on Facebook, which was created to dedicate to him. Here's the link.
This world is really cruel. Sigh! I think I start to lose interest in living already. What's the point of living anyway when everything is so unstable like this?
SIGH!
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